I am one week into my last grilling 8 months of high school and I am already so tired I think I genuinely hallucinated today (I rubbed my eyes and then opened them and saw what I thought were flies everywhere)- this can't be good.
'Get more sleep' you cry.
I would however, I only have one day a week of which I could possibly take a nap/go to bed early on because of other commitments both in and out of school (eg. homework, part time jobs, clubs, hobbies etc) and even then there is the other problem that I am a night owl.
You will have seen that Kendal's Column often doesn't go up until 11pm and thats because I'm more comfortable doing work in the evening because I like to get my big fluffy jumper on and a mug of hot chocolate and do homework/blog- it's just how my brain works.
I have tried doing work earlier and discovered that a) there wasn't enough time to to do enough work justify the time it took to get setup (if that makes any sense) and b) when i have finished work early and i can get into bed early I won't be able to sleep- I'll have been tired all day but as soon as I'm ready for bed my mind starts racing (WHY?) and that results in me falling asleep even later.
Pair this problem with having to get up at 7am to catch a bus to school and I'm lucky to get 7 hours sleep a night (compared to the recommended 9, for a teenager).
Teenage Night Owl-age can be backed up by science. It's knowledge that's been floating around the internet recently that teenagers have a different natural sleeping pattern than adults and children
'One important change that occurs at night time is increased levels of the 'darkness hormone' melatonin, which helps us to fall asleep. Most adults start to produce melatonin at about 10pm. When teenagers were studied in a sleep laboratory, researchers discovered that they only began to produce the hormone at 1am.' -http://www.bbc.co.uk/science/humanbody/mind/articles/emotions/teenagers/sleep.shtml
Friday, 13 September 2013
Saturday, 7 September 2013
Hey! I thought I would update you on my life at the moment - I have just started sixth form at my high school and I have taken four subjects to do a-levels in:
- English Literature (obviously, because of all the reading I get to do!)
- History (More reading and great teachers!)
- Philosophy and Ethics (Again, more reading and a lot of thinking)
- French (reading French books!)
In other news I got my GCSE results a couple of weeks back, and I have spent the last week or so trying to figure them out and also figure my life out. These were my results:
English Literature: A*
English Language: A*
RE: A (2 marks off an A*)
Geography: A (4 marks off an A*)
Music: B (one mark off an A!)
Core Science: B
Additional Science: C (oops!)
Being the weirdo that I am, I ideally wanted all A*'s and A's. But reality check... I am not good at everything.
There are some people in my school who pretty much got all A*'s, but everyone has their own home and personal circumstances that meant they either did better or worse. Some people have pushy parents (mine are not pushy in the slightest, they encourage me to do my best but only want me to be happy) and other people just can't stretch to being perfect in everything. It's normal not to be great at everything.
For my reward, my parents didn't know what to get me. I had a lot of money spent on me during the holidays, so I wasn't prepared to ask for any more. However, my mum knows me well and took me to a bookstore to pick something that is more valuable to me than any amount of cash... books!
This is the book I finally settled on for my gift! I got the most beautiful volume of Death Note (which I have been so excited to buy) and the envelope contains a gift voucher for a popular book store in England.
It was emotionally hard for me doing those GCSE's and after two years I was just glad to finally have a fresh start. It's not that they're ridiculously hard (depends what you take in my opinion) but I had to do module exams which meant I had exams every few months, and if I re-sat any then they would be when the next lot of exams were and I was constantly catching up.
I'm not going to lie to you. I felt stressed, I couldn't cope at some points (and this is coming from a dedicated student) and felt a depression that no teenager should have to feel. But hopefully all those that are doing GCSE's soon will just have them at the end month of each year. You will be fine as long as you go and ask for help when you don't understand something!
That's all for now. I will probably do a book and stationary haul next week seeing as I need a ton of stuff for school.
Have a good saturday!
The Book Critic x
Friday, 6 September 2013
School has started.
As I have said before, this year is going to be a big year for my education as it's my GCSE year and with all the exams there's going to be a lot of stress and anxiety.
It's the same for all teenagers in England when they reach 16 and, I think the majority will agree, it's horrible.
However, I have had to cope with exam stress before as I was put forward for some exams early so Fortunately, I found a way to manage my stress. I look forward to things.
This might not work for everybody but I find that looking past the problem of the present towards something happier/more enjoyable in the future gives me the strength to carry on and get through it.
Imagine a tightrope walker. If they look down at where they are then their more likely to lose their balance and fall but if they keep their head up and look forward to where they are going to be then they'll keep their balance and make it to the end (best metaphor I can think of).
At the moment i'm looking forward to 3 concerts (one of which is with The Book Critic) which all happen before the end of November so if ever i feel stressed i will think about those concerts and start internally screaming with excitement and that'll get me through the stress. Your 'something-to-look-forward-to' doesn't have to be a concert though, it can be an event as big as you like, it can be seeing your friends at the weekend, your favorite band's new album coming out, a birthday or even leaving school, as long as you are excited for it then that can be your 'something-to-look-forward-to'.
Once the moment your looking forward to comes create/find another and another and another because they're all there. Life is full of moments to look forward to that will be so much bigger and better and will mean so much more to you than the present stress.